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WoRLd wE LivE iN

2009-05-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

Watch me as I stare in wonderasking so many questions about lifewondering
If it all matters.....why was I put herewhere people are always in fear
They're all afraid of loss but mainly failure most of them are in the past
Hoping it all gets better on the NEWS
You hear about people killing themself because they think
life is all hell!
You hear people saying that the world is changing
The truth is
that it isn't the world that is changing-it is the ones who are complaining
I know what you are thinking that you heard it all before but that's it you heard it before

heyhey..its 9th april today

2009-04-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

HoLahola...my frends complain that my blog have not been updating since 25th january...haha..might as well i juz close down tis blog rite but i still love blogging(cume malas jelah....HURUP M pat atas kepale aku cukup besar utk krg spot..haha)ok...start all these rubbishing talks...hmmm..Must be all of u wandering what is happening in my life since i do not actuali update my blog?When people ask me how's life? I always reply oo...enjoying every minute of my life..People must be wander what's my secrets of enjoying life...Actuali I have no secrets..juz don't bother what people say the negative sides about u..juz take that as an encouragement n stepping stone in ur life..haha...sometimes i would be able to do it too...Since i graduated from ITE,life is like routine to me...wake up in the morning..breakfast...do housechores..watch tv...n the next day....on and on...Unless i have my part time to do...den i will be more den happy...Actuali for the past few days..i've been working...so..atleast my life was added abit of spice n sugar..haha...(startlah merepek aku nie...)
OO..YA..ALMOST FORGET ABOUT TIS...i AM EXTREMELY EXCITED YESTERDAY AS I HAVE BOUGHT E63 SERIES PHONE...WOW...THAT IS THE PHONE THAT I REAALY WANT IT AND NOW ITS IN MY HANDS NOW....WOHOO...
TODAY HAVE A CHECKUP AT SGH AS WORKING IN SGH IN 1 MORE MONTHS TO GO...PLANNING TO WORK FOR 1 YEAR FIRST BEFORE PURSING TO NYP FOR DIPLOMA IN NURSING..HOPE CAN GET IN THRU...PRAY FOR ME OK..
fOR MY FRENDS OUT DERE..REALI MISS DEM ALOTS..CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT OUTING GUYS...CAN'T SIT TOO LONG AT HOME OTHERWISE WILL ROT..HEHE..WAITING FOR U GUYS TO PLAN SOMETHING..ANYTHING JUZ MSG ME..K...
OK...I HOPE TO KEEP UPDATING MY BLOG IN TIME TO COME...BUT NO PROMISE HUH...GTG...I THINK I HAVE WRITTEN ENUF...SEE U NEXT TIME ....BUT BEFORE I GO THERE'S A POEM I WANT TO SHARE WIF MY BELOVED READERS..

Thank You, Friend

Thank you, friend, for all the thingsThat mean so much
to me--For concern and understandingYou give abundantly.
Thanks for listening
with your heart;For cheering me when I'm blue;For bringing out the best in
me;And just for being you.
Thanks for in-depth conversationThat stimulates my
brain;For silly times we laugh out loud;For things I can't explain.
For
looking past my flaws and faults;For all the time you spend;For all the kind
things that you do,Thank you; thank you, friend.

By Joanna Fuchs

2009-01-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

hey ya...i'm back again..How's nice..holiday 4 days including today n yesterday..so can relax a bit..today alreadi bored to hell..sitting infront of tv..nothing interesting to watch...so ending up writing blog...plan for tmr to go out wif frends..dun noe can or cannot make it..it seems that everyone quiet...but nevermindlah..see how it goes..
Yesterday..i am sooo pissed off with my workplace...The workers there are playing shit behind my back...BACKSTABBERS...HYPOCRITES...ok..the story goes like this..the dr called me yesterday telling me that i did not need to come to work tmr..which is todaylah.I'm shocked as the dr did not give reason why he quit me.I ask him n he gave unreasonable reason..What the fuck..I think someone want to play shit behind me..I dun want to mention their names..I noe there is always retribution for them..haha..coz i belive in karma...FUCK OFF TO ALL OF THEM WHO PLAY SHIT BEHIND MY BACK...BITCHES..SLUTS..may god gave u all a hard retribution..
I am juz so sorry whoever who read my blog..i'm juz pissed off...no more talking about them..juz make my heart pounds fastre n can lead to heart attack..What for..not worth..juz..let bygones be bygones...

2009-01-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

What a tiring day today...I really enjoy myself today as i went shopping wif my mum...WooHoo...manage to get 1 pair of charles n keith heels n adidas latest watch...I really loVe it sooo mUch eSpeCially for the heels...iT dosent't cost much though..Although i'm tired but satisfied with what i boUght..oKlah..lAzY to type more...sEE Ya..tmr nEEd to worK..mUst wake up eArLy..

heyHeyHey...

2009-01-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

hey gUys...upDating my bLog after sooo lOOOng time kept untoucHed...i cAme 2 uPdate after someone commented that i'm lazy to update my bLog..actuali i am lazy indeed..depend on my mood actuaLi..so guys..u noe now wHy i lazy to update..soo now i update ready..dun complain ah...hahah...
For the past 2 weeks is quite a tiring day for me as we have our attachment at IMH..Actuali i barely do anything but the journey that made me tired and sleepy n guess what i have eye bag..OMG..have to get rid of it..irritating seh..haha..bUt i wanna say i have fruitful 2 weeks there..This time around my attachment at IMH is more fun compared than the first time..haha...u shall noe as i go on why i enjoying this one..Get to sight seeing despite my sleeping eyes..haha
For our 1st week i am attached to general ward at 44.This time round is the long stay patient..so the patient have beeen there for years alreadi before i was born i suppose..It was quite a pitiful thing to see them there in that king of age..but what can i say...At first the ward was quite bored...i barely do anything but standing around talking to patient..All these standard lah sey...
Den....1 week have past...2nd week came...this time round we have to rotate ward...we were separated into 2 groups..so my group consist of me..nadia..citi..farah..prema..hoe theng..yunis and alifa...Its quite fun having them around..haha...guys..u should noe better rite..haha..our 1st day was at A&E...The place was totally bored sey..barely patients are coming in...We were counting every minute at the clock sey...bUt luckily we saw this guy who act in the drama anak metropolitan holds a position of "apple jack" in that story..He is the crook in that story...He is really friendly..On that day he made our day lah..bercoz he is also funny..He is not arrogant as certain actor...that is why we were very comfortable talking to him..Then we came to know that Haizad Imran is working in one of the ward that we were going on that Thursday..so we were all looking forward for that daylah...hahaa..(sape tak suke kan)tuesday were at clinic b..that noting much we can do there..so no story for that..wednesday...we were at Ward 20 which is rehab ward..the ward was totally differnt from the general ward..We were amazed by the decorations of the ward..It was splendid..We really enjoyed ourselves on that day as we play games the whole day..haha..We laugh until tears coming out...ok...the time comEs..on thursday...we're going to HAIZAD IMRAN ward...OMG...haha..we were all excited but tried to maintain cool lah..if he saw us like that..later paiseh...futhermore we're gals..When we step into the ward..happens to be he walked past us..HAH..all pf us like star struck..but still maintain...Then he came back to oriente us to his ward...All of us wake up although all of reall sleepy on that day including me...Yeah..he was far more better in real life rather in TV...He was friendly and funny..haha...although some of it he was quite lame lah..(sorry bro)hahs...Then he callec us to sit in one of the classess but he was not there as he was quite busy attending to certain things..At first i did not notice this Mr hot stuff as i dun noe his name but he look like model more than a staff nurse..but he's hot lah..so in that ward there were 2 hot stuffs lah..i agreed with that..Back with that Mr hot stuff,i notice him when i was feeling sleepy putting my head at the wall n happen to see his smile..OMG..really makes me melt...hahah..then i continue looking at him until i think he feelinh uneasy as he notice sum1 looking at him...Then he looked at my direction..that is when i quickly divert my attention to sumthing else..Lucky man..bUt i have no words to say but HOT..SIZZLING HOT...You dun be feeling bored if you're working in that ward...i will work in IMH after getting my diPLoma(insyallah)n work in that ward lah...haha...If u guys were me..u will be flying over the moon...i dun noe what to say alreadi as i have no words to describe alreadi lah...haha...Actuali juz now we want to took photos with dem..but unfortunately they went home...:(..too bad...juz not our luck maybe...But Overall i really enjoyed my posting this time round..rEaLLy a fruitful want..
Ok guys...i reali update my blog quite long this time round...so Enjoy reading..yO...bYe..sEE yA...

Good-Night by Percy Bysshe Shelley

Good-night? ah! no; the hour is illWhich severs those it should unite;Let us remain together still,Then it will be good night.How can I call the lone night good,Though thy sweet wishes wing its flight?Be it not said, thought, understood --Then it will be -- good night.To hearts which near each other moveFrom evening close to morning light,The night is good; because, my love,They never say good-night.

gOOdbYe 2008..hELLooOOO 2009

2009-01-02T19:49:00.002+08:00

Heyheyhey..its 2009 now..hmm.time reali flies fast huh..Aniwae..happy new yEar everyoNe..i tHink its nOt tOO lATe hUh..haha..new year..new resolutions..hmm..talking about resolutions..i think i gotquite a number ut i think to the important onEs..i hOpe i will be able to fulfill some for this year..

My rEsOLUtiOns:

I want tO sheD some weight..n become sLimmer..hahah..(hope 2 achive that)
Hope my life will be more bless..
Hope to get attached?..haha..(juz for fun)

Ok..i thinK that's aLL lah..tOdae i'm quite lazy..to type..See ya guys..n A HAPPY NEW YEAR..:)

2008-12-30T15:59:00.002+08:00

heyHeYhey...
back again..me feeeling super duper tiring todae..dun noe why..maybe..becoz of the weather..i suppose..reali bright sunny day todae..juz wake up as
yesterday sleepover at my cuzzie sister huz..We had movie marothons again..tis time around we chose ghost stories..
We watched 4bia(love the 3 n 4 story as 3rd one is funny while the 4th one was quite scary)...followed by rouge crocodile(that is not ghost stories..juz some thiller)n lastLy was the 1408..reali enjoyed the movies thAt we jUz sLeeep fOr couPle of hOuRs b4 waKinh up..thAt's why when i reached home..i bathed n take naP..nOw still feeling tired n bored..attachment starting abiut few days more..haiz..Now feeling bored..dun noe what to do..TV nowadays boring..nothing interesTing to do..oklah..
tHat's for tOdae..lAzy to tYpe aLreadI..

PS:1 moRe dAy tO gO b4 sAyInG gOOdbYe tO 2008..

2008-12-29T01:21:00.002+08:00

haiya..dun noe why cannot sleep in this wee hours..juz cannot shut my damn eyes...actuali feeling tired but juz cud not shut my eyes...juz finish watching this malay drama 'GELORA DI HATI SARA' as i miss that 2 episode..that's why doing this catching up since i can't sleep..mummy alreadi sleeping..daddy still watching tv at this hour..He's really at owl..sleep really late at nite and wake up soo early in the morning..dun noe what magic powers he have..haha..juz can't wait for 1030 at nite to watch the continuation of the drama as now its at the peak..If u guys feling bored..try watching tis sad drama..it really make u cry..haha..n i did cry..(emo lah konon)..OKlah..since its holiday now..ya..why not catch tis drama at youtube...ok..peeps..gtg..its alreadi late..now i realised its late..makes my eyes close lah...ok..see ya around for the next post..

karAOke outing

2008-12-28T22:58:00.019+08:00

heY..back again..Actuali juz cAme baCk from maSjid after cElebrating mUsLim nEw yEar bEfOre celebrating the nEw yEaR oN the 31 of dEcember..ToDae feel sooo bred althoUgh my familY and I went out jUz nOw..Todae is Sooo vEry hOOOOt that made us easilY lethargiC n huNgRY as oN sUnnY daYs,we Tend to bUrn more fats faster..haha(mcm fahm onLi)

ThEn uPdAte pHotos tHat i Went karaoKe with fatin,yusra,fifa,dayah,khai,kelvin faizal n saiful..It is my first tie going out with the E clans although i always go out wif the gaLs..But it was Fun though..wAiTInG for the next outing...haha..maybe who's the planner next??hmm..iTs stiLL a question mark??It is not easy to plan as tHe planner needs alot of paTienCe..rItE fIfA?haha..

The karaoke was a awesome as we get to sing sonGs alThOuGh our vOiCe iS noT lIke aNy sInGer..bUt wHo cAre..tHaTs iT wHy it nAmed karoake riTe guys?haha..bUt for that fifa n faizal n get award for singing alot of soNgs as for the aftERnooN thE bOth of thEm Were acTivelY singing..fAtin voIcE was awesome..I should gIvE 10 thumbs up..haha..n i was shocked that kelvin sang dangdUt song..alamak..die gelek lah krg..haha..After that..kHai n keLvin agIn weRe sinGing dAngdut that sAnG by iNuL bUt iN the eNd,tHey did not sIng bUt tHe guys watcHeD inUL gOyAnG mAuT nYER..haha..wHen nearing to tHe enD,tHen sAiful want to sing..alamak..he sing when soMe of uS are gonE..seGaN eh..hehe..tHat afternoOn was fuN n wE dId enjoyEd mySeLf..

On tHe frIdAy moRnIng..bEfore gOing for Karaoke,mY frend msg me that the exam results were ouT while i am still sleepIng as thE yesteRdaE i wAS haViNg moViE mArOtHon aT thE cOusIn sIsTer hUz..haha..i enjoyed it as tehmovie was aLL thillERs..Both oF uS sHoUtEd when it come To suspenSE..fUtHermOrE hER parents wEre not at home as they were doing thier plimerage at Makkah..u gUys shoulD tRy it..mOvIe mArOthOnERs aT hOme iNsTeAd aT cInEmAs..oK..bAck to my stOrY..i qUicKlY opEn uP ITE wEbsitE n cHecK Y reSults..i Was scAred tHaT i fLunG my exams but i pAss aLL mY yEaR eNd mOdULES..pHeW..hehe..jUz hope that i do weLL in cLinIcAl n i will be aBle to Go to poLytEchNIC to pursue my diploma in NuRsing..

oK...tHatS for toDae..bE bAcK witH mOrE uPdAtEs in tIme tO cOmE..

PS:SAY GOODBYE TO 2008 IN 3 MORE DAYS PEOPLE..

Am I bEiNg mAdE tO bE a LoNER?

2008-12-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

Oh my gOd..My heart really aches..man..I dun now why..I am the person who will not fall easily for guy.But when i fall for a guy i want to noe more about him myself..I'm confused wif my own feelings sumtimes..I used to have tis feelings before but when i realised it will not cone alive so I stop feeling for that person but his apperance sumtimes is quetion mark to me..He loves that person but sumtimes the way he look at me as if he noes i have a crush on him..That made me stop having a crush on him..I considered that feeling of mine an infactuation.Tis one another one more..maybe aku je yg perasan tak..I have tis feelings for tis guy starting from 2.1..if i'm not wrong.It is during our SIM training.1 yr at sch dosen't made me to notice him either.But since tis 2nd yr,i notice him n feelings start to grew..We hardly talk but the way he talk to others..the way he smile..the way he act juz captures me..My heart really opened up for him..Its not his fault..as he plainly dun noe..i think he oso have no feelings for me..Like what i say..it need to clap with 2 hands but now i am clapping with 1 hands only...What a devastating thing to do..When i accidentally opened up his blog..my heart juz sank deeply when i read his post..Betulah..ape aku ckp..aku yg perasan...Hiaz..sedihnye aku...kdg2 aku pnat suke berperasaan sebegini..takpelah..biarlah..srg itu dtg dgn sendirinye dan aku bleh menikmati tu semu..I hope that moment will come soon..My heart is too looong to be kept empty..Ohh..why..I have to be in this state?Oh god pls answer my prayers..I really in to him..Although he dosen't look like the guy that i want,the qualities that matters...Hiaz..sob..sob..For those who noe who am i talking about..u juz ignore..need not tell me who he is...Kalo lah..die tahu aku suke die..kan bagus..I Look as if i am desperate but not..this is confession of my heart..u dun noe whn u will fall in love..the feelings juz come naturally..U cannot blame me for these too..I hope..that day will come when he knows how i feel..even if for a few moment..

OK...enuf of this emoshit...need to sleep..mummy alreadi noisy..ok..see ya..
p.s:for those who noe juz keep it to urself lah..u noe i noe lah...

oUr oUtIng...bBQ

2008-12-22T21:11:00.021+08:00

Hi frends...back again...this are the photos that we had our gathering.It is actuali a well done although it rain the whole day...u guys must been wondering why are we wearing our jackets when we suppose to have bbq...hahaz..becoz the weather is damn cold that we can't even take our jackets off for a moment.We arrive there ard 4 plus but the guys alreadi there..Ashraf..Farhan...n additional member..najib bro...nukman..den ard 4 plus the gals join..me n surya n abby(najib's darling)..Thks to najib as he drove the gals there as he is oso picking up abby from work..Hafiz n fira arrive a bit later...by then we stop the bbq as the rain becoming more heavier..Then najib had a surprise for abby..So we have play our part so that abby wud not suspect anything..The surprise turn out to be awesome..The wordings that najib made from light sticks was splendid..I wish i got a thotful n romantic guy..haha..dream on lah fad..ok back to the story,najib even surprises us with photo frame n our names on it..We were so touched.We feel like crying..hehe

Even out 8 man tent which ashraf bring along,was went as i think we didnt zip properly..Wandi n Omar arrive later too as wandi juz came back from work n omar juz came back from KL..

We can't bbq anything as the rain was pouring n every1 was hungry..We decided to eat nasi lemak at changi village which some claimed was nice but actuali it wasn't.So we go 2 cars..which lead by najib n omar...hehe..drivers of the day..hehe(joking huh..)Yg paling best skali..i drink teh tarik...best btol..tu baru dikatekan shiok...tgh hujan2..minum air teh..WOW..hehe..After a hearty dinner..Omar went home as he have to fetched his sister from airport..So we left wif one car which is najib car..Futhermore we planned to go to OCH..At night..raining..going to OCH..OH My GoD...U gUyS juz imagine it..hahs..Some more we left with one car n has to cramped with 7 people..It is not impossible..it is possible coz we have done it..hOw we done it i shall not explain in detail..hehe..u noe i noe lah ye...When we reached OCH..we were all feeling scared..our heart really pump very fast..We're having tachycardia(medical term lah plak)Luckily the front gate was locked that made us to turn back..The enviromnent really send chills to my spine..

Back to our campsite,we walk as we talked for that nite..None for us is sleeping..We talk about everything i suppose.We sleep ard 4 in the morning..i think..By then i dun bother 2 look at my watch..

Gatherings like these able us to noe one another more.The neat side n the seleke side of us..We able to foster our bond more closely which we find it hard during sch times as every1 is busy wif schwork n stuffs..But i think we all at sch n outside the same..still very playful..Miss those times when we are together..Hope we can have these gatherings agin..I got a piece of poem for all..

"Give me friends or give me death". A life without friendship is terrible and lonely. We are social beings and friendship is an incredibly important part of our lives. Appreciating friends is something we must always make time for. In today's competitive world it is easy to get up in our careers or our latest project. It is important to keep a sense of perspective. It is nice to rise high in the company but all the money in the world is not going to keep you company on a cold winter night"

Pics of the social nite...

2008-12-22T20:14:00.027+08:00

HEY HEY HEY...BACK WIF MORE PHOTOS..THESE ARE THE SOCIAL NITE PHOTOS THAT ARE TAKEN...ACTUALI THER'S ALOT BUT I JUZ TIRED TO UPPLOAD MORE...I THINK TIS ALREADI MORE DEN ENUF....HEHE..HOPE U GUYS ENJOY SEEING THESE PHOTOS.

Standard Chactered Marathon

2008-12-19T22:29:00.029+08:00

singpore dirtiest place for that day

deep heat anyone?

teachers on the go....

first aid counter for the 42 km

they are the road marshals...

the patrol car meaning the end of the race...wooHooo

the are even children racers...WOW..

short...tall..small built...big built...

the handsome..the hunkies...hehe

our drop off point...

the gorgeous first aiders for that stn..haha...

massaging time!!

Taking photos of jump tak menjadi...

Looks cOnstipated...hahahah

On our way...

Look Ms chow is so energetic in taking out photos in the bus...haha

tis the landlard that we haf to wear for identification

Hahah...that's all the photos for that event...Although its a long time tapi masih belum basi lagi tau...masih fresh di ingatan...haha...i think that's all folks.....Will upload more in time to come...

Friends make me smileThey brighten up my dayFriends have that magic touchTo
chase the blues awayThe road of life can be longWith many twists and turnsWhen
things really go wrongThat's the time you learnJust who your friends areJust who
is on your sideBecause when you need themTrue friends never hideA friend always
seems to knowWhen to be a friendIt seems they're always readyWith a helping hand
to lendMy friends knowWhen they're in a jamThey don't have far to goTo find a
helping hand.

2008-12-18T16:20:00.002+08:00

hey2....yesterday was our so called "SOCIAL NITE"...but its not even nite..it was held in the day(mcm faham)haha...it was quite bored..but the interesting part when we met our frends and took pictures..(i have not taken it from my frends yet)oh...ya..guess what...happen to be najib got 2nd for the best dress award...haha...so lucky of u najib...

Then we head to esplanande for lepaking session...with the kecohrable...my f clan their own agendas..so i follow my other gang...we sat there untill 10...all of us head home..i have not received all my photos from my frends...SO PLS FRENDS...PLS SEND PHOTOS TO ME VIA MY EMAIL..k darling...thks alot...

i'm back

2008-12-13T14:49:00.001+08:00

Hey hey hey...i'm back again after making such ammendments..but still got little touch-ups to be down...i'm soo happy that i can edit my own blog now...pick up bit by bit lah...hehe..I think i got alot to write but see howlah...haha..sumtimes i'm juz lazy to type..but i love telling stories but juz dun like to type...:)i dun see a point why i haf a blog when i'm lazy to update...tat's the main thing actuali..haha..but its oklah...

Holidays already started last week i think..didnt keep track of the dates...atlast away from lectures,long hours of class and practical lessons and even exams that make us sick...WOOHOO...i think i gonna enjoy my holidays as i would be staying at home all the times as i would be working part time as a clinic assistant...alreadi started last tuesday..although its quite tiring but i enjoy it as i got to dispense medications which we do not allowed to do in the hospital..its was quite fun though as the patients there really trust what we say as we're the pros...haha...i think i will juz continue despite of sch opening ....

SGH called for interveiw on wednesday...The interview went well as i got assisatant director of nursing as the interviewer...i was feelinh quite nervous actuali but i will be able to answer all the questions..They say that they will be calling us when our results is out but on thursday we received a phonecall fom them saying that we haf to come down to sign tha aggrement...To me its quite early as this made me difficult to sign as i was planning to go to poly if my results are good...actuali me n my frends juz write down our name for the sake of writing down..we never knoae that they will call us to come for the interview but nevamind...everything have alreadi taken in my hands...only left with signing the aggrement...its still pending...but they give me before 26 December..still got alot of time to think...

Haiz...i got this one matter have not settled yet...its about my brother...i felt like strangle him if i can...he is reali a pain in my ass..not my ass my parents too...he's been begging my parents to buy him a bike since he have pass his bike licence..but he juz can't wait...Almost everyday he been begging n begging...I nearly wanted to slap at him becoz of his fucking attitude...He's been behaving so rudely to my parents that i juz can't stand it..He think by doing that my parents will buy for him bike faster...FAT HOPE..HE IS JUZ SO FUCKING IMPATIENT...JUS CAN'T STAND HIS FUCKING ATTITUDE...wait till my father lose temper towards him...then he will noe how far is earth and sky...I think got a big fat devil sit on top of his head...that is why he is so fucking stubborn...i have enuf talking about him...the more i talk about him the more angry i got...later i oso kena high blood pressure...haiz...banyak susah lah...

Haha...i think that's for today...i will update in time to come...see ya...

2008-10-19T19:57:00.002+08:00

hey...hey...im back again...dun be mistaken by my last posting...i do not refer to anyone in particular...i just pouring out my feelings that i think i should...i do not want to keep it for a long tyme as i'm afraid that the feelings will erupt one day...i do not want that to happen like Mount Fuji..Erupt once in a blue moon...i think i have poem for all of you

"Platonic love is very much a part of any close friendship. But such a love doesn't always stay platonic. Sometimes it turns into passionate love. Crossing that line, between friendship and love, can be both beautiful and extremely difficult."

Is this true?

2008-10-17T12:16:00.003+08:00

Haiz....i hate this...This feelings cames again..Is being sOooo looong that this feelings came and now the feelings came again...Oh god...iS this the person that is created for me that i've been waiting for..Is this infactuation or feelings that is true...I'm soooo confused...but now i can't do anything as there is certain reasons...I'm afraid that i will clapping with one hands...It takes two hands to clap and form a sound....aCTUally i do not where and when it happen...It happen sooo suddenly...We started as friends and now i am stuck with my own feelings... What should i do now?I do not want him to know as i'm afaraid that will make our friendship shakes.I am really in a confused state of mind...haiya.....

Miss all of my best buddies...

2008-09-27T20:34:00.002+08:00

Haiz...again i can't join my fwends for the buke as i got this tahlil thingie...Again i miss the fun...Dah 2 kali tak dpt pergi...reali miss lots of fun lagi2 ader zulie....Miss all of them soo much especially crazy zulie and kak abby...hahha...Nanti hari raye kuar same2 lagi eh tapi kali ni plan btol..kalo tak mcm last year..hehe...Dun forget to update me...babes and dudes...Miss u guys...Hugs and kissess from me...

oNe aDaM soN hAvE lEft tHe woRLD

2008-09-21T12:56:00.002+08:00

Everyone have to die...No one will stay forever...No matter how u dislike that person...when she passed away u will have to forgive her whatever she have done to you...On friday morning,my father called saying that my grandmother was in critical state..So we rushed down to Cgh to her condition...Ya...there she was lying motionless on the bed with 100% oxygen at her throat...I fel pitied for her as she have been suffering for the past 6 months...I read some holy verses from the quran and we stayed ther from morning till night...At night after we breakfast,her blood pressure was deteriorating.Since my aunty have opt DNR,the nurses can't do anything for her...i just standby her.My aunty keep asking me if she's gone but ample of times i say that she was still surviving...By then...everyone was there..My uncles,aunties,cousins were all surrounding her..All our eyes were in tears including me.I can't help it but to cry..Although during herlife i'm not so close to her but i still feel it becoz i'm her granddaughter..WE took turns to kiss her forehead and cheeks and whisper anything..As i kissed her,tears rolled my cheeks..When i whisper to her i really feel that i'm going to lose my gRandmother.She passed away at 1030 pm..The doctor annouce her dead by that..All of us were silent cryers..Not even one soul open their mouth...That moment was silent and touching...Now i have left with no more grandfathers and grandmothers...Sometimes i felt jealous when i saw the other people joke around with their grandmothers and fathers.Although i don't really felt the love from my grandmother but i appreciate her as my grandmother..After all i'm not that bad.i really felt that my heart is aching but never mind i lucky enuf to still have my mother and father....Everone will depart from this world one day even me leaving all the loved ones..

All men live enveloped in whale-lines. All are born with halters round their
necks; but it is only when caught in the swift, sudden turn of death, that
mortals realize the silent, subtle, ever present perils of life.
Quoted from
Herman Melville

fLash back...

2008-09-12T23:29:00.008+08:00

Hey everyonE...one day before the fasting month arrive,my father workplace have organized family day at singapore flyer....I really had a wonderful day onthat day plus i get to wash my eyes thru my shades...haha...I get to ride the flyer which cost $29.90 but becoz of the fa,mily day,it only cost u $6...Amazing deal hah?the view is spectucular....Its like WOW....i really love the scenery of Singapore from the top view with all the high rise building....i attached some pics for u guys to view..There is some of the pics...continue tmrw...sEE ya...GooD nItEs

wHat a dAy...

2008-09-12T23:17:00.004+08:00

haiz...what a day today....plan to go break fast wif my fwends but ecventuall my stomachache worsen...Cant make it...at first i thot can endure but the condtion worsen...futhermore i cant do anyrhing as i'm fasting today but neva mind....but i miss the fun with them lah....Guys...i'm sooo sorry for the last min backout...JGn marah2 tau...hehe...actually nothing much happen today...What a boring day...plus with a stomach ache...haiz....

wHat a dAy...

2008-09-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

2008-09-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

ALo2...Im bAcK...

2008-08-02T21:09:00.011+08:00

Hey hO...wTaz Up doC?Im baCk...Fad is In thE hUz tidae...its beeen awhile that i didi not update my blog man...coz of my complah...hiz...got virus but everything its ok..rite now...i got this neighbour to repair it for me...thks alot to him anyways....i think i got lots of stories to tell...but i dun noe where to start..i dun want to make it a long one...afraid that pple might get bored when reading this my blog...but B4 that i got this picture quite cute...

Cute babies rite...talking about cute babies...i'm actually on attachment rite now at KKH...but its was 2 weks past...n i love it at the nursery where all new born babies are...the babies are too temptingbthat i kissed almost all...they are SOOOO cute...haha...have one for myself but After marriage huh...After that we got ti the paediaterics ward where all the children is dere ranging from babies to teenagers but the oldest is juz sec 1 over dere...Many of us got sick becoz of dem as we all kissed the SICKED children...n i m still down with my flu...and it have been 2 weeks..i dun noe when all this came to an end...its so frustrating that u can even taste all the good food....HaIz...but i still miss my days at the nursery...haha...oh yah..i remember sumthing that i got this teenager ppatient named Marlini..I thinks she is lonely that she always find one of us to play with her...So she is used to our existence around her...On our last day,she cried...i was shocked as i didnt xpect her to cry..iTs was quite sad to see her in that condition but we cant do anything..She's sick...so she haf to stay dere...But we gave her our numbers...So she called us when she is lonely..but its ok with that as i suppose she is juz so lonely..

In the midst of that,i do nt quite noe how to say this but my 'nenek n datuk sedare' from thailand came for holidays and of course im so happy as its been awhile that i didnt see dem....So i toook this tyme to go ard Singapore with dem although im quite tired after my attachment...Neve mind lah..sacrifice abit for themlah...my father even took 2 days off so that can bring dem for a tour...here are some of the pics that we took...

This is some of pics that i have taken for dem...actually quite a number but im lazy to update...dere is also my pics...haha...the above scenery is taken by my abg sedare from thailand...i find the pic quite nice so i decided to put it up...we wnt to sentosa,ride cable car,went to s'pore river n took the bum boat....That day is a really tiring day for me as the following day i have attachment but i reali enjoy myself....We haf some sweet memeories together...PS:pls dun bother about the dates at the pics as i did not set the date at my camera...haha...

oklah...i think that for today...i will continue with my stories other days...hehe...GTG..Bye gOOD nite... Here is a poem for my readers...i quote this in the net from someone...i find this nice so i put it up...

"This is the beginning of a new day,
I have given me this day,
To use as i will

I can waste it or use it for good,
But what i can do today is important,
Because i am exchanging a day of my life with it,

When tomorrow cames,this day will be gone forever,
Leaving in this place,Something that i have traded for,
I want it to be gain not loss,Good and not evil
Success but not failure,In order i shall not regret,
The price that i heve paid for it,

I will try juz for today,
For u never fail
untill u stop trying..."

So read it and understand it readers....Have a nice day....:)

2008-06-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

juNe hOliDaYs..

2008-06-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

hOhOhO...i'M bAcK aGaiN...i eNjoyIng my jUnE hOlidAyS...sUrFing nEt eAcH dAy...msNinG mY fWenD...aS uSuAL...i hAvE tO houSE cHoRes...hAvE nO choiCe...wHaT tO dO....i'm a gAL...fOr the pAsT fEw dAyS i'M tOtALLy fEd uP wItH mY wOrKplAce bEcOz i hAvE bOOk fOr mY cAmP for 3 cAMp bUt i hAVe nOt receIvED aNy mEssAgEs fRoM dEm...nOw dEn i hAvE rEceIvEd meSSaGE fRom dEm fOr bElAyEr n g.I...qUiTe nOt hAppY lAH witH hOw iT wOrKs....i nOe i'M jUz aq fReeLaNcEr...bUt aCtUaLi i eNjoYed wOrkIng deRe bEcOz tHe PpLe dEre rEaLi mAkEs mY dAys...hAhA...cAn't bEaR tO leAVe mY pArT tImE jOb...hAhA...mIssIng dEm aLrEaDi...hAha....ok...gEt bAck tO jUnE hOLs...n nOt fOrgEttiNg i wAtCh aLot kOrEaN drAmAs dUrIng tHe hOliDaYs....rEaLi lOvE iT....aS fOr tOdAy...i'vE wAtCh aGAiN pRinCess hOuRs cOz i lOvE iT eSpeCiALLy PrinCe sHin....RecEnTLy i'Ve wAtCh cOffEE pRiNcE...nIcE draMas...aLtHougH cHannEl u hAvE iT fEatuRed...i reALi dUn qUiT lIke bEcOz iT dUaL sOuNd tO mAndArIn...iTs so nOt nAtUrAL...i lOvE DEm tALkinG KOREA...i nOe sOme LiKE 'Hullyunghaeyo' means admirabLe lIke mE hAHa....sO tHe pEraSaN...

Lately...oso i'm crazy over hindustan soNgs...dUn nOe wHaT's hAppEnInG to mE....oVEr oPPsEs mayBe...hAhA....i'M kInd oF tIrEd tO typE rItE nOw...sEE u gUys nExT tYmE fOr mOrE uPdAtEs....Annyonghi kyesayo means gOOd bYe....

HOHOHOOHO

2008-06-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHHOHOHO...hEy eVeYoNe.........tHiS iS My BLog...i"m pRoUdLy tO pResEnT tO eVrYoNe tAt mY BlOg iS rEaDy....aLL tHaNkS tO mY deArEst cUbbY gArFiELd fWeND,afIfAh hUssEiN...ShE hAvE dOnE aLOt...toLeRaTinG mY fUssInEss...hAhA...yA...eVeRyoNe wAnTs thE bEsT fOr thEiR BLog...i'M juSt tOO hAppY...cAuSE i uSeD to hAtE BloG in thE pAsT but nOw i lOvE iT sOOOOOOOO mUcH.....sEriOuSLy i dUn nOe wHaT tO wriTe aCtUAli...tOOO hAppY i tHInK....